Thursday, May 18, 2006

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I am depressed.

I have so many thoughts; I don't know where to start.

I feel like crying. Have you ever had that feeling? The need to cry? I have been holding my tears back since Tuesday noon, trying to look strong. Well, I am surprised from myself, I never had that ability to hold back my tears, I used to be very sensitive and it was the easiest thing on earth to cry. Maybe I should be happy that I learnt to control my self. Or isn’t it sad to loose the only sensitive part you had?

I didn't cry, Yet!! But I do feel the urge need, I feel I would collapse at the first click.

Whatever!

I just have a question. Say you are in a middle of a discussion with someone, who thinks that you have done a big mistake (Maybe you actually did, but this is not my question), and it holds much more than it shows; that it ruined the trust, and you are irresponsible.... Then suddenly, the other person asks you: "am I exaggerating about it?" and then answers himself "I don’t think so". What is this supposed to mean? Wouldn’t it mean that somewhere deep down he feels he is actually exaggerating? I mean if that person did not feel he's gone too far, would that thought of being "Exaggerative " cross his mind? It wouldn’t cross my mind unless I really feel I am exaggerating, BIG TIME!

More problems are coming in the way. I really feel down! I know I seem to be a very bad-mooded person, and I know it's not fun at all reading such posts…

I don't even have a weekend to look forward to!

Anyway, life seems better after eating!

I hope no other problems are waiting for me behind the door!

I feel a bit better!

3 comments:

Sari said...

Dear Reemo;

I'm slowly becoming a convert to the principle that you can't motivate people to do things, you can only demotivate them. The primary job of the manager is not to empower but to remove obstacles.”



I'm so glade you are feeling a pit better; I guess am so lucky to have someone in your personality besides me; anyway it's good to know that eating would make that different.

As for the primary story don’t you feel sad for being strong and smart, and in reference to exaggerating here is a quote I would like to share

I used to look at (my dog) Smokey and think, 'If you were a little smarter you could tell me what you were thinking,' and he'd look at me like he was saying, 'If you were a little smarter, I wouldn't have to”

Lina said...

Nice quote Sari :)

What this job taught me reem is that nothing is worth getting depressed over because things usually work out well in the end, after all the stress and obstacles ;)

And, blogging really is therapeutic, it helps you get it off your chest and feel better, doesn't it? ;)

Tomorrow is a new day, keep smiling dear!

Lara said...

reem! i agree about the eating part ;) I miss the cafeteria