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How can I make time fly??

55 hours to go..

I'm at work, doing absolutely nothing. Sleep as always, and bored.

I want today and tomorrow to end now. I want today to be Thursday!

Get me a ticket from Amman to Riyadh & win a very nice DVD Player

Dear All,
Good morning, listen I have tried my best to get a booking from Amman to Riyadh but I couldn't, this is why am announcing a very nice prize to the person who can do it.

So I hope there will be someone that can help me in getting one ticket from Amman to Riyadh .

So the equation is simple. Find me a ticket ,Win a DVD player and show everyone how much you are connected, & by the way here is the information you might need to do so

Sari M. Traih
Dep. Amman Dest. Riyadh
Date 5/1/2007

Or you can do it if you can find me something in 6/1/2007 but in the morning
Anyway thank you in advance for the effort, I wish I could give each one of you a DVD player.

Thanks!!

It's been one year today..

At this very day last year.. I met Sari for the first time.
Ever since, my life has totally changed, to the better.

Sari, Thank you for appearing in my life.. and Inshalla together forever.

Farewell 2006: A look back

This year is coming to an end. The final count down started already. 10 days to go. And I think it's about time we stop, look back at our year, what achievements we made, what dreams we realized, what mistakes we committed..
Let's go back to this time last year; are we standing in a better position now? Did we walk any step ahead towards our goal?

My year was the best in my life.. Well, until 16 September! Afterwards the curve started going down…
Fatafeet Essukar has started a very nice tag.. Things you did for the first time in 2006. Actually I was thinking about writing an article about the same topic. About things I did for the first time in my life, things I didn't like. Things I liked.. So here we start!!

Things I did for the first time:

1- Of course, as you all know, I got married!! For the first time, and for the last time Inshalla!!
2- Visited Egypt 3 times. Cairo for the first time in January, then Shram Al – Sheikh for the first time in March, then Cairo again in November – I love Cairo, but I'm not a fan of Shram al sheikh.
3- Visited the other side of the world – Malaysia. That was a lifetime trip! Really the best ever in my life! Well, the company counts as well :)
4- Had a cat in my house! Well, I never liked cats before! So the change is something to document!
5- What is more important than having the cat in my house! Is having my own house in the first place!!
6- And ofcourse, started blogging!

Unpleasant events:

1- My uncle passed away.
2- Sari Had to leave to KSA!! And So having to spend Ramdan and both Eids alone!
3- Work! Things have not been going as I wished!
4- My brother Ghaith was unable to attend my wedding.. Couldn’t get his papers done to come from the US! I hate paperwork.

Pleasant Events:

1- My beloved sister Abeer, who lives in Dubai came twice: once for my wedding, and the other will be Inshalla for Eid Al Adha – This is what makes me really excited about the upcoming couple of weeks, she arrives Friday.
2- My sister in law gave birth to lovely Lamees. So I became a "3amto" for the second time! (Not that any of my nephews or nieces acknowledge me being their "3amto" or "Khalto", I'm just Reem for them, what is worse is that they really feel I'm about their age!!)

I Can't think of anything else at the moment.. I hope you all have a prosperous year ahead!

Song of the post: Rdyly – Wae'l Jassar. I'm sorry I couldn't get you the link. I'm at work and tarab is not allowed!

Merry Christmas, Happy eid and Happy new year for all.

Tagged!

I was tagged by Dave and Wa'el. Just as Wae'l and Manal, it's the first time that I get tagged, and guess what! twice in the same day! Does this mean I have to grab 2 books?

So here we go!!

The Tag rules are:

1- Grab the closest book to you.
2-Open Page 123.
3-Scroll down to the 5th sentence.
4-Post the next 3 sentences on your blog.
5-Name the book and author.
6- Tag 3 people.


".. on a Piper Warrior, and straight away I saw the difference between cars and planes; you can stop the car any time and get out, but you have got to land the plane. This called for more than technical..."

The book's name: "My story"
Author: Sarah The Duchess of York

I tag:
1- Sari (I bet he is not going to do it! He doesnt have any books I believe, and if he does, he will be too lazy to do the homework, Just kidding my dear :) )

2- Nada: A very new blogger! Pay her a visit.

3- Lina

4- Hani


And while I'm writing this, I got tagged again by 7ala!!

Can't think to find a title.. so u name it.

Yes, you are right. It's 12:00 midnight. But I'm not up because I'm playing and dowloading songs. I have an ear infection.. and I have a fever, I'm trembling with cold putting on my heaviest winter jacket.

I wnat to sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep. But I can't. So what to do? write a post! what a good reason!

This post is going to be boring! I can't concentrate, and I have nothing to say!

You know what? I'm gonna leave all the spelling mistakes, so you can know what state of mind I'm in at the moment! I feel ini 3am bahlwes min il skhooneh!

ok this irrelated bunch of words have to end, I can't control my fingers anymore..

I have a headache too. I hate illness.

Song of the post: Shu hal ayyam ili wsilnala - Ziad Rahbani! Please tell me what you think! you can find it on 6arab.com. I tried to get you the exact link but the site is down! sorry.

Jordan Planet Meeting - A refreshing experience

Today was not the best since it started. I woke up on a very bad pain in my back. I played Aerobics yesterday, first time since ages, so my back is killing me..
But my day has ended in the best way it could.. It was the first time I make it to the JP meeting..
There were so many people.. And It feels really good to see the people I read about almost daily.. I felt that the missing part of the puzzle was finally in place.

There are some people I was hoping to meet but unfortunately didn't. Hope I will some other time soon.

I was very happy to meet all of you guys, I'm not sure I can remember all names so I'm not gonna start so as not to forget anyone.. But I have to say, I was very pleased to finaaly meet Qwaider!! He is Number 1 reader of this blog! Thanks Qwaider! I will leave the pictures job for him since he was the camera man!

It was my first time to old view cafe as well.. A lovely place that I will definately come back to.

Song of the post: Kalimat - Majida Al Roomi.

A Two Minute Management Lesson

Good morning everyone
It has been ages since I had received a valuable email like this one. This is why i've liked to share it with everyone and am sure we all need to read it.

Enjoy.

Why a two minute management lesson? Because we all need some management "Continuing Education" every once in a while.

*Lesson One:*An eagle was sitting on a tree resting, doing nothing. A smallrabbit saw the eagle and asked him, "Can I also sit on my ass like youand do nothing?" The eagle answered, "Sure, why not." So, the rabbit saton the ground below the eagle and rested. All of a sudden, a fox appeared, jumped on the rabbit and ate it.

*Management Lesson:* To be sitting on your ass and doing nothing,you must be sitting very high up.*Lesson


Two:*A turkey was chatting with a bull. "I would love to be able toget to the top of that tree," sighed the turkey, "but I haven't got the energy." "Well, why don't you nibble on some of my manure droppings?"replied the bull. "They're packed with nutrients." The turkey pecked at a lump of manure and found it actually gave him enough strength to reach the lowest branch of the tree. The next day, after eating some more dung, he reached the second branch. Finally after a fourth night, he was proudly perched at the top of the tree. Soon he was promptly spotted by a farmer, who shot theturkey out of the tree.

*Management Lesson:* Bull Shit might get you to the top, but it won't keep you there.


*Lesson Three:*A little bird was flying south for the winter. It was so cold the bird froze and fell to the ground in a large field. While it was lying there, a cow came by and dropped some dung on it. As the frozen bird lay there in the pile of cow dung, it began to realize how warm it was. The dung was actually thawing him out. He lay there all warm and happy and soon began to sing for joy. A passing cat heard the bird singing and came to investigate. Following the sound, the cat discovered the bird under the pile of cow dung and promptly dug him out and ate him.

*Management Lessons:
(1) Not everyone who shits on you is your enemy.
(2) Not everyone who gets you out of shit is your friend.
(3) When you're in deep shit, it's best to keep your mouth shut.This ends your two-minute management course


Note: i dont know the writer but i have to thank him

Late night ramble!

Who said ADSL is good?

It's 1:00 a.m, I'm dead tired and sleepy, but I'm still up, downloading songs, and playing games!

Can't I do anyting more useful? But honestly, I like the bunch of songs I downloaded.. All Arabic. Did I ever mention that I'm an "arabic-culture" Fan? I love arabic music, arabic series!! and I don't watch much movies! I like english music.. only the oldies! And you know what? I love egypt, and egyptian.. I have been to Cairo twice this year.. and I am definately in love with it... How can you not love "mloukhieh bil araneb"??

I didn't tell you about any of these trips, did I? bad me!

Well, the second time I was on a business trip for an amazing course in Organizational Behaviour.. This course is definately worth another post! In that visit, My friend and I, Proudly, became wedding crashers!! Here was the daily program:
Finish course at 6:30, go around Cairo and have dinenr till around 12:30 -1, and then, continue the sahra at the wedding that would be taking place in the hotel! by the third night, the waiter in the hotel gave us that dirty look of "What the hell do you both do here every night, aren't you the same annoying guests I see around the hotel??" !!

Now seriously, how can I not be in love with such a city? So ancient, so cultured, so filled with the smell of history? How can you not love a city where people would start talking to you in the street? smiling all the time? How can't I adore the pyramids?

Do you know what Do I feel at the moment?

I feel I'm in my 4th year of university.. I used to stay up infront of my computer, in the very same place where I am now, suposedly studying or working on some stupid project that was due next week and I just found out about yesterday! but eventualy ending up doing something totally irrelevant, and time-wasting! what makes me feel so most, are the songs I'm hearing now.. The very same bunch of songs of that period of my life..
Why are songs so related to people and places? They always trigger a memeory about a place, someone and even time of the year.. What is amazing about it is that when I hear a song, the memory is so strong that I can feel the atmosphere of it.. feel cold if it was winter, and feel like going out with fridns if it's summer... SO amazing.. I love memories.. There are so many things I smile when I remember.. well quite a lot that regret too, but lets not go there, I will leave it a happy night!

I'm so tired.. Do you know this phase when you're so tired so u become high?!!! This is me!

I definately didn't know that this post was going to contain all these unrelated, un-interesting (is that the right form? is it un-intersting or not intersting? I honestly can't think staright now) topics! But that's what you get when you decide to be nice enough to read my late night posts!

My back hurts.

By the way, you can't imagine the number of mistakes I found when I proof-read this! SO if you find anymore, please forgive my mental status now..

"Tawq al Yasameen" - MAjida Al Roomi
"R7 &alfak bil Ghoson ya 2asfour - Wadee3 al Safi

Do hear them sometime.. My ever favorite songs.. And if you need any further advice about great songs, that are not very well known.. just let me know.

Good night!

ADSL

I have to admit.. Yes, I didn't have ADSL connection till yesterday!
Even worse, not very long time ago, I didn't even have a PC at home. Honestly, I got fed up from computers, I had enough from them having to sit there in front of the screen 8 hours a day!!

But now, I am a web-enabled person! And I like this ADSL thing, quite quick!

So, I expect myself to write a more often, and participate a bit more!

Anyone missed me around?

It's been ages since I worte a word... Well, ages since so many things, Let's see:
- Ages since I worte a word
- Ages since I checked Jordan Planet
- Ages since I checked any of my favorite blogs..
- Ages since I opened my own blog!!

Ages since I did anything useful!!

I suddenly lost every interest in everything I like... Even going out! I seem to be so stuck at home these days.. I have so many things to do, but I'm just too lazy to go out and do any.. Are these symptoms of depression?? :)

Nothing specific that I would like to say in this "shallow" post! Just wanted to tell you I"m still alive!

I HATE KSA

I HATE KSA
I HATE KSA
I HATE KSA
I HATE KSA
I HATE KSA

A year ago..

At this day last year.. 3 hotels in Amman were attacked by terrorists..

Eid Mubarak...

I was definately surprised when it was anounced the Eid is not today...
But here we are.. Ramdan is leaving us, and we will be celebrating Eid tomrrow.

May God acceppt our fasting, prayers and good deeds..

Happy Eid to you All.

True Story: Where is the concious of our doctors?

Important Note: I am not mentioning any names as I don’t want to hurt the family of the man, they are suffering enough.. For any one of his family who is reading this, I deeply apologize if this hurts you in any way. I am just as sad and wounded as you are, and I thought that we should do something, at least object, on such irresponsible behaviors..

My classmate's father passed away last week. It was a car accident…
He and his relative were together when suddenly a car from the opposite side lands on them, of course it was due to the crazy speed the people in the other car drove, they jumped on the other side causing a deadly accident.

Car accidents are indeed tragedies, and are harvesting many souls.. I heard there are 225 people who died in Ramadan due to car accidents. But this is not what I wanted to share…

My friend's father was lucky, while his relative passed away on the spot. He was ok, and actually got out from the accident. He went to the hospital to be with his relative and finalize his papaers... While he was at the hospital, he felt something is wrong. Being a doctor, he knew what it was. So he approached the doctor there telling him that he is having blood accumulating in his head, and he needs a surgery to get this blood out of his head. The doctor, ignorant enough, told him he is all right, and nothing is wrong with him. The man insisted telling him that he is a doctor and he knows there is a bleeding in his head, blood is accumulating and it needs to be out now. But the doctor still did not care and reiterated that the man was fine.

So he left the hospital to go to another one seeking medical help, and passed away on his way….

What kind of hospitals we have? What kind of doctors are we putting our lives in their hands? Shouldn't the doctor be a bit more responsible?

I really don’t know what to say.. It just made me shiver for hours after I heard the story… I am wondering, how does that doctor feel now? After the man died because of his ignorance?

Were there any actions taken by the responsible parties to punish this doctor? or at least investigae what happened? I wonder...

JP's Iftar! Enjoy

I'm goona miss today's Iftar!

As much as I was looking forward to it, but I'm not gonna be able to make it.
I had a very hectic week. Yesterday and the day before I was stuck with activities with my company till around midnight, and today I can't think of anything but bed.

I hope I will be able to catch the next meeting, (if I am not in KSA already).

And to all Bloggers, I am still looking forward to meeting you all someday!

Ramadan's Fault

I had studied engineering for five years, but seems that those were lost years of my life as they don't seem to help me! I feel I am confused about calculating the real distances between countries.

Here I am in KSA 14000 Km away from home, but surprisingly enough I can't take this trip back home, and guess what! It's not because I am sick, it's not because I can't take it, and it's not because I don't want to, It's simply because I haven't finish my papers here.

Today I can feel my self so far away from home; I can simply sense the feeling of being in jail and believe me it's not a nice feeling at all.

But whose fault is this? It's not mine for sure, nor is it the company I work in, according to the KSA Standards it is : Ramadan's Fault!!

Of course I refused to believe that this lovely month can create such a disaster in my life, nevertheless what if you need to finish your papers in a country that treat this month as a "handicapped" month, why?

1- Government employees get to work at 12 Midday and leave at 1:15 pm! (This is the real work time not the published). Of course they take 45 minutes before the time of praying and another 45 minutes after it ".
2- They only work until the 18th of this month; the rest is a vocation, to make them feel the holy month and practice Islam, otherwise they will get back to worshipping stones!!
3- Ramadan is only for praying, because it's hard to pray and work at the same time, either this or that. So every one you ask about your papers will simply remind you that this Ramadan, "go and pray bro, its better than your papers" (They made me feel that they only Pray in Ramadan )
4- Most of the important employees in the government take half of the month as a vocation, some of it to do Omra and the rest at the beaches of Dubai to forget about this hard month. (of course those are the people I need their signature, lucky me)"

So as you all can see, here in KSA it's the fault of Ramadan if your life is stopped for 35 days, why? because as you can feel here they notice Islam only a couple of days before Ramdan, the rest of the years its for TV , and tourism and show off in other countries.

Please forgive us God for the silly way some people around us treat Ramadan. And dear Ramadan, I will always love you the way I do. It's just that those people didn't get the message, I don't know maybe not working in Ramadan is better for them, because I am afraid if they do they will get " Hubal" back to Makka!!!

Questions..

How hard is it to loose a friend?

How do you know you have lost your friend?

How bad should you be feeling for loosing a friend?

Was He/She a friend in the first place?

Was it a one-sided friendship?

Was it just the circumstances around you both that made you "think" you were friends, and then, by the absence of the cause it vanishes away?

Does it always keep a friend to be faithful, loving and forgiving? or those are irrelative variables?

Sari is kissing Amman goodbye and flying to Ryadh.

You can never know if this is the right dicision or not. But we have taken it with all the risks it hides, hoping it will turn out to be the right one.

Sari has gotten a job offer in KSA - Ryadh. And he will be leaving Amman on Saturday.

I should be following him. That is when is paperwork gets done. Having Ramdan so soon, it might take longer than I would want it to!

He would have to find us a home and buy a car.

SO, people in Ryadh, or in Amman, any advice? any suggestions on how to go about things the easiest way?

Wish us Luck.

September 11th... What does it mean to you?

Today, it's been 5 years since, well....

since my special nephew "Ahmad" was born!




That's true, he was born at 2:00 a.m. Tuesday, 11-9-2001!!!



Happy birthday Ahmad!

I want to blog.

Sooo.. Time to blog I think!!!

What about? I still don't know.. Seems that you will have to listen to me thinking aloud (well, you have to appreciate it, I rarely think)!!

Qwaider made a comment on an earlier post, suggesting that I should write about miserable women in the middle east.. I thought about it, it could be a really good post that could get my blog better stats! But then I decided: No. I'm not going to write about it. Why? Because I am not miserable being a women in the Middle East. Of course that doesn’t negate the fact that some women (I don’t know the proportion of "some"! it can be "a few", or "the majority") are actually miserable living in the middle east. I think this might be caused – at one level – by the old mentality that some "middle-easterns" posses, I don’t want to start analyzing and looking for reasons for this phenomena, but – Thank God- I'm not one of those women who ever felt miserable.. I think it's because I had a very understanding, open minded parents and family,
which drove everything else in my life to be like wise, my school, my education, it even taught me how to choose my friends.. To make a long story short, I am a happy person, satisfied with my life! J

Thanks Qwaider for making me realize that! I know you didn't mean it! J

This blog is a very effective tool to help me organize my thoughts. Whenever I start writing a post I note how discrete and unconnected my thoughts are, and sometimes I feel that either no one would understand what I am trying to say, or they would be shouting at their PC's for how redundant I am.

Ok,, this post shows how unconnected I am. But you know, this is how I want this post in particular to be, I want to speak about everything is my mind.. I have so many small things to tell that can't be each in a post.

Did I ever tell you how fascinated I am about the world of dreams?

Yesterday I remembered a piece of information I once read that I thought to be very interesting. (If anyone is wondering why yesterday, it's because I slept at 7:30 p.m., and woke up at 7:30 next day!!) ok, what was the interesting piece of information?
It was about dreaming. When we go to sleep, we normally need sometime before we start dreaming, around 20 minutes (correct me if I am wrong, I might have forgotten the exact number). After this period of time, we go into a phase called REM (Rapid Eye movement) which is the phase in which we dream. The interesting part of it, is that our bodies become PARALYZED during REM, to prevent our bodies from acting our dreams. For instance, did it ever happen to you, being just about to sleep, dream you are falling, and then actually feeling your body moving quickly when you are "falling", a reaction your body might take when you are ACTUALLY falling, that's because you haven’t yet gone into the REM phase, and so you body is still not paralyzed. This theory explains why some people walk while they are sleeping. It's because they have sleeping disorders, they don’t go into the REM phase and their bodies don't become paralyzed! I really find that amazing. I will look into some resources about it and let you know.

WOW,, this unconnected stream of thoughts seems to be longer than I thought!

I am off to Aqaba this weekend. Again?! Yes! But with work this time! Our lovely company is taking us for a relaxing weekend in Aqaba. It's gonna be fun, I hope!

On another note, a group of our colleagues at work left to Omra yesterday, it's a trip arranged again by our company. The bus took off from the company's backyard! It was very touching when we were saying goodbye to them . I was about to cry… The feeling I had looking at them getting ready to go, with girls having veils on (although they are not veiled, but for the purpose of Ihram), I wish I go someday!

What else I have in mind to share on my blog?

There is a friend I miss! Lina!
Although we work together, but ever since I came back to work from my honeymoon, things have been going crazily, we are all very busy at work, and we (Lina and I) no longer work on the same initiative. IT seems that she is so busy too, she is not blogging either!! Lina, we are waiting for you to come back.

Did you have enough from my unrelated talks? Ok catch you some other time then!


Ooh ya, it seems that I am on my way to take an important decision: I will kick Sari out of this blog, he is an inactive member!

Back to the Furture?!

I had a bizarre dream! I dreamt that I am living in year 2006! Wow, what an amazing world it is at that time.. All people have new nice cars, they have telephones that you can take anywhere you go and you will still receive phone calls, they call them "mobile phones".
They have rockets, and they have actually landed on the moon. It is just astonishing the technology they have!
Do you know that new invention that has just been announced a couple of months ago in the USA that they call "Computers"? We think it will never be usable, and it is very large, it needs a whole room by itself. Surprisingly, there in year 2006, they can't live without it, they have it in the size of a notebook; they take it with them wherever they go. And they have something called Internet, they run it on those tiny computers they have. This Internet thing is just freaky, they say you can send a letter any place in the world just by pressing a button, I can't believe it, how could that "button" fly overseas and reach the destination you want? thats not the end of the story, your letters reachs directly to the house of the person you want your letter to go to!

Do you know what else they have on this Internet? They have something called Jordan Planet, where all Jordanian people who like to write can write there and people read..

It was this Jordan Planet that woke me up from my dream, brining me back to the real date! December 31, 1969!!!

Pictures.

This is how my office was waiting for me on my birthday morning. That was a while ago, but I just got the pictures today.







It was a nice day.

What makes a successful blog?

I love my blog. And I love the whole blogosphere. I amazed of how addicted to it I got, how up to date and connected to the world it makes me feel just reading blogs here and there. Especially when it comes to someone like me who neither reads newspapers (that's bad I know) nor watches news at TV (even worse!). This is one reason I love blogosphere, but it's not the most important one. I love how close to people it makes you feel. Although you might not know those people in person, but blogs are wonderful communication tool that makes you feel you are living the life of bloggers day by day.

But the big question is: How do you manage a successful blog? What determines if your blog is successful? Traffic might be the answer. But what I perceive to be a much better indicator is the number of comments you get. As people might visit your blog, but they wouldn't leave comments unless they find your posts very interesting. Or, at least, I don't leave comments unless I'm really interested in what's written, and in the blog as a whole.

Ok, here comes that bad news… According to my own indicator of successful blogs, ours is not :(

Any suggestions for other indicators?

A thorough look into me..

Facts about myself:

1- I am 25 years old, a Leo.
2- I love music.
3- My favorite dish: Hard question, I have many! Well, mloukhieh (Jews Mellow!) and war2 3inab (vine leaves).
4- My favorite program: Tom & Jerry.
5- My favorite pet: I don’t like pets in general, but Tom is fine!
6- I love mathematics and dealing with numbers. I have an amazing memory for numbers.
7- I am a talkative person.
8- I love kids.

Things I do not like about myself:

1- I am easily intimidated, even when I know my stuff 100% sure.
2- I have a loud profile that people think I'm aggressive all the time.
3- I explode fast.
4- I am lazy.
5- I lack determination – too spoilt?
6- I eat too much.
7- I am too skeptical about things.
8- I have very bad time management skills. I can't find time to do things I love; reading, practicing my French, playing Piano… and many more
9- I am always sleepy.
10- I am not athletic.
11- At certain situations I loose my self-confidence.

Things I like about myself:

1- I rarely hate anyone.
2- I have a tender heart that feels pity for every creature, even my teddy bear. – Is that good or bad?
3- I am sincere.
4- I can never hurt anyone on purpose.
5- I love to help people.

Things I would change if I go back in time:

1- I would have put more effort on my studies; in school, university and post graduate studies. 2- I would have never stopped playing Basketball and volleyball.
3- I would have participated more in extra-circular activities.
4- I would have chosen people I knew and dealt with with more care.
5- I would have never socialized with some people.
6- I would have studied a different topic for my post-graduate studies.
7- I would have seized the chance of living abroad alone for a year to learn more from the experience and gain knowledge and expertise that comes from different cultures.
8- I would have taken more care for weight gain, and never gained as much as I did in 5 years.

Things I wish I learn about:

1- Medicine: everything about how our bodies work, why we get ill, and how to cure diseases.
2- How mobile technology works.
3- Psychology.
4- Babies' world (up to 3 years old): what do they think? What do they know? What do they understand? Their cognition of their surrounding environment before and after they are born. 5- Dreams' world: How do we dream, what happens when we sleep, what do our dreams mean? 6- The truth about sixth sense, telepathy and ESP (extrasensory perception).

Things I should do before I die!

1- Revive my French language, build on it and become fluent.
2- Revive my basic knowledge of playing piano, and continue to learn it to become a good pianist.
3- Learn to exercise daily.
4- Have my own successful business.
5- Read, read, and read.
6- Have a nice home with a peaceful, loving and outstanding family.
7- Master English!

No more Tom :(

Alright, it's not that I'm going to bug you every now and then with stories about Mr. Tom, but I thought you should know the end of the story since you -reluctantly- witnessed the beginning of it.

No more Tom. He is lost. We missed him Wednesday night, I thought he would come back, but unfortunately, he didn't.

I think one of the boys in the area took him.

If anyone is interested to know how I feel, I feel awful about it. I am very sad he is gone. I wish he comes back!

P.S. I mentioned earlier that I didn’t know if he is a HE or SHE. I assumed in my previous post that he is a SHE. I don’t know why now the assumption is that he is a HE!

Tom, But NO Jerry!

Sari Loves cats. So we were planning to get one as we have a small garden around our home... But somehow we couldn't find one and then we got too busy and almost forgot about it!

On Wednesday, we had to go to my father's farm - which is located in Mahes, a small town after Fuheis, 16 km from Amman, specifically, from our home. - to drive someone there. It was around sunset, and just before we arrived there, we saw a very small kitty meowing… I think she is no older than two months!



"Sari, look at this kitty… she is very nice,, please stop!"
"She wouldn’t allow you to come near her Reem."
"Just stop please!"

And so he stopped. I opened the door, and before I could do anything else or step any further the cat was in my lap, meowing hardly. She was STARVING. I had some pastries with me so I got one out and gave it to her. I would never forget the way she started eating it.. In less than one minute, it was all over!

We took her back home with us. She is so thin! We named her "Tom"!!!
I'm getting a vet to check on her and vaccinate her today!!

By the way, I'm not sure if it's a She or HE! I assumed she is a SHE!



She is very lovely, loves to play, and was puzzled by the Argeeleh yesterday!







Cats are nice!

Off to Aqaba this weekend!

I had to work on a friday two weekends ago, so I will be compensated for it by taking this thursday off.. Trying to make the best out of this three-day holiday, we decided to go to Aqaba! Well, nothing too extraordinary, but I'm happy about it and looking forward to it. We're staying in Coral Bay Hotel. Any feed back about it?

Happy Birthday to me!!

Today is my birthday! I feel very good today, it's weird how much we are affected by our mental state.

I came to the office to find it all filled with roses and red balloons! It looks very nice. It really made me day!! I took a picture of it but i couldn't post it as I dont have the USB port for the camera!

Anyway, that's it! Nothing much to add about my birthday today! will tell you about the presents I got later :)

Sad, but unfortunately very true...

The rules of POLITICAL CORRECTNESS when it comes to the Israeli-Arab conflict:

Rule #1: In the Middle East, it is always the Arabs that attack first, and it's always Israel who defends itself. This is called "retaliation".

Rule #2: The Arabs, whether Palestinians or Lebanese, are not allowed to kill Israelis. This is called "terrorism".

Rule #3: Israel has the right to kill Arab civilians, this is called "self-defence", or these days "collateral damage".

Rule #4: When Israel kills too many civilians. The Western world calls for restraint. This is called the "reaction of the International community".

Rule #5: Palestinians and Lebanese do not have the right to capture Israeli military, not even a limited number, not even 1 or 2.

Rule #6: Israel has the right to capture as many Palestinians as they want (Palestinians: around 10000 to date, 300 of which are children, Lebanese: 1000s to date, being held without trial). There is no limit; there is no need for proof of guilt or trial. All that is needed is the magic word: "terrorism".

Rule #7: When you say "Hezbollah", always be sure to add "supported by Syria and Iran".

Rule #8: When you say "Israel", never say "supported by the USA, the UK and other. European countries", for people (God forbid) might believe this is not an equal conflict.

Rule #9: When it comes to Israel, don't mention the words "occupied territories", "UN resolutions", "Geneva conventions". This could distress the audience of Fox.

Rule #10: Israelis speak better English than Arabs. This is why we let them speak out as much as possible, so that they can explain rules 1 through 9. This is called "neutral journalism".

Rule #11: If you don't agree with these rules or if you favour the Arab side over the Israeli side, you must be a very dangerous anti-Semite. You may even have to make a public apology if you express Your honest opinion...

Isn't democracy wonderful?!!!

P.S. I got this by email. I felt like sharing it. Thanks Abeer.

Arabs decide that they will demolish Israeli if >>>>>>>>>

Arabs decide that they will demolish Israeli if Nancy Ajram's home is touched!!!

I have no doubts that Arabs will eventually move and take action, when things get out of hand! They haven't yet, as our lovely star is still safe at her home!

I have no doubt that we all have some dignity somewhere inside; thank you Nancy for getting us together!! But I want to assure you, in case Israel demolishes your home, I am sure that your insurance from your beloved ones will guarantee you a new Lovely house just near Alkaba, because this is our new strategy Nancy, this is our way to a new middle east!

I am very proud that we have a red line at least! Especially that Nancy Ajram became a symbol of arabic culture, and we as Arab must protect the star from any harm that might get near here "keeping in mind that she might add a lot of new albums now".

What makes me more satisfied with this is that Nancy might publish new albums for Lebanon due to the ongoing war there! Which will for sure help people who are suffering there and maybe stop the war?

Malaysia, Truly Asia.

I'm back.. Long time no see my friends!!

As you all know, my wedding was on the 6th of July. So I have been away from work, internet and eveything that connects me to my daily normal world for more than three weeks, I have dozens of stories to tell you about. The wedding, marriage life and events that took place over the last month... Where shall I start??

Honestly, I was very hesitant to post this now. I feel very bad for what is happeneing is Gaza and Lebanon. It really hurts.. I don't want to speak any politics, or make any situation analysis.. I just need to say how bad I feel about what is going on there...

Anyway, I decided to go on and tell you about this unique period of my life.. Sorry for the inconvenince of time.

Those three weeks were amazing, time you steal away from everything and run away somewhere very far away to enjoy nature and peace of mind.. I feel so fresh after coming back to work from my vacation.. It was just perfect..

Well,, as the title tells, this article is dedicated to tell you about my honeymoon in Malaysia. Malysia is really a piece of heaven, I can't describe how beautiful it is, and how cheap as well!!! I spent the best time of my life there.

As they say, a picture is worth 1000 words, I wouldn't do much of the speaking, I will leave it to photos. Enjoy!!



Malaysia Twin Towers.



King's Palace!! You can pass by it, take photos and say hi to the soldiers there!!




Yummy, Chinese and Japanese food. I love Sea Food!



Taman Sari!! The resraurant's name at our Hotel in Kuala Lumper!!





Amazing nature they have, I have never seen such green lands, It is really a peice of heaven, Sub7an Allah.



In "Butterfly Farm", Penang, Malaysia. Somewhere you can see all kinds of beatiful butterflies flying around you peacefully..

To my parents... With love....

25 years are coming to an end... I will be leaving the house I grew in, the house which embrassed me and my childhood, the house which witnessed all the events and acheivments of my life....

I have been thinking of those years for the last couple of weeks, it all passed by my mind like a tape.. My parents next to me all through the way, surrounding me with love and care.. protecting me from all that might hurt me, and from myself above all...

And Suddenly you regret every moment you spent away from them, busy with your freinds... you regret everything you did that they didn''t like, and then discover how selfish you were proiritizing everything else first...

Mum and Dad... I love you so much.. you are the reason I am everything I am.. I wouldn't have made it if it wasn't all for your love, care and support...

Now that I am leaving your home,, the paradise you made for us.. I can't find words that can adequatly express my feelings.. I wish I spent more time with you.. I wish I never made you upset... I wish I wasn't all busy that days passed without spending a minute with you...

Now that I am leaving your home.. I wish you forgive me for anything irresponsible I did.. I want you to know that the years I spent in our house was the best in my life... I love you soooo much, and I will be forever unable to thank you or pay you back one thenth of what you gave me...

I never thought it would be this hard.. Whenever I thought of my marriage I always thought of the white dress, the happiness that day, but never really thought of this feeling I am having.. I wish I never leave you.. But I think there is no way out of it.. Life goes on, and the day will come when we will have to leave your lovely nest and try to make our own.. I promise you I will be up to your expectations, I will try to raise my children the way you raised us, though I can be up to your level.. But I will instill in them he belief in God, the respect for oneself and other, I will teach them every valuable lesson you taught me...

Mum and Dad, I am very proud to be your daughter.. You are the best of the best... I will always look up for you both... Mum and Dad: I LOVE YOU.

I know you might never read this, but I will always pray for you, ask God to protect you and grant you heaven....God Bless you...

Wish us luck

Dear all; today am posting to thank you all for your efforts and lovely comments you had left on our page; it was very generous and helpful for both of us "me and reemo"

I won't say that I had a lot of posts here; but be sure that I had visited every single user passed by our page since we had created it.

What we had learned from this experience isn’t something to do with wedding or procedures; in fact it has to do with creating a very huge family and very close friends at the same time (I wish all of you can feel that too).

You had touched me with every single visit to our page; I was very glade to feel the smile on your faces; but most of all I was very proud to pronounce your care through your comments.

Thank you all for everything, and dont forget to wish us luck

Lost in feelings

I haven't been able to write for so long! And now I'm stealing a moment to write this! It's strnage how I miss the blog and blogosphere, and how I got addicted to it in less than three months!

Plenty is going on my head, many things I have to do and follow up on. Tomorrow is my shower party, and I will be going in an hour or so to check on the DJ!!

My weekend have been so hectic, my brother arrived on friday.. I started packing and will be moving my stuff to my home today!!!

What else? I feel I am soo busy minded, I no longer can sleep well!! That is the pre-marriage syndrome, isn't it?!!

I have many many strange feelings about it.. starting my own life, leaving my parents house... I sometimes feel I lost the enthusiasm in all this hassle of feelings!!

Anyway, you really have to excuse me... I have to run try finish some of the things on my list. Wish me luck...

Soo,,, 9 dasy to go!!

Now that is so near! But you know? I still can't understand it! I feel like its still couple of months to go! But I actually started running after the 98742 things I have to take care of before the wedding! The zafeh, flowers, DJ, Photography, Video, the car, my dress! And there is my shower party too! Then my home!! That is giving me a headache!
Oooh and I forgot the honeymoon!

I am supposed to start my vacation next Sunday. But my beloved company agreed to give me off after lunch break this whole week! I am so happy about it, I love them!! They as well give one week marriage vacation!! nice ha?

What else? My sister came from Dubai on Friday, she kept me up yesterday till 2:30 a.m!!

Ooh I am supposed to get my dress today, wish me luck!!

Anyway, I have to run, I am going to irbid with my manager! Ciao!!!!!

Seeking HTML help!

I am trying to add a picture on the blog headder. I have been playing around the HTML template but couldn't do it. Can anyone help?

Are you a rabit?

Sari tends to be so gentle and caring. So he really cares about what I tell him to do or not to do, he takes my opinion into consideration, he tries his best to make me happy. And when we are out with friends, he looks after me to make sure everything is just fine with me.

This is so lovely. What is not lovely is the way people look at this kind of relationship between any couple and interpret it into the man being "arnab" and "ma7koom". Something that would mean that the man has no personality, afraid from his wife and so he pretends to be loving and caring, and has no control whatsoever over anything in their relation. In short, he is just a follower!

I know I know it is just a joke! It's not about me personally. It's the joke around all men getting engaged and married. One famous faces of this joke is the very well known "position" given to wives; "Wazaret il da7'lieh" (Minster of internal affairs). Again indicating that women are the cruel rulers of the house, and men are just "poor, helpless" obedients who have no choice! Does this make the man "Wazeer il malieh" (Minster of finance)??

Now allow me to say this: I HATE THIS JOKE! And I get really annoyed when someone says such things to Sari (and me of course)… why?

1- I feel it is so intrusive from people to allow themselves to judge our relationship like that. They do not have the right to do, and they do not even know the truth about our relationship.

2- I feel it underestimates and disrespect our relationship. It puts it in a small shell, makes it look vague and meaningless and makes it look like there is nothing in relationship other than who is controlling who.

Apart from the personal part of it, I wonder why is that joke so common although its untrue in 95% of the cases?

Put aside the exceptional 5% of unhealthy relationships in which the above mentioned words apply, it's totally untrue and unreal. We, women, do not control men. Neither do they. They are not "araneb". Or is it just unacceptable to see a man who loves his wife, takes care of her, and considers her opinion? Does it make a man loose his manhood being kind to his wife? Is it that odd to see a couple "sharing" their life rather than "controlling" each other?

I think it's not just a joke, I think it's the resistance of change. After we have been in times where wives and daughters had no right to say anything but "Yes sir, you order", where they have been abused and mistreated, we are now changing to the better, where wives are not just followers, where their opinion counts, where they are no longer treated as a property of the man who married them, but rather partners. Such jokes are a form of the resistance to this change, which takes away the "authority" of men over their wives.

The good thing about is that having this resistance means we actually succeeded to change. Resitance in all forms will always be there, and change will always continue to happen...

Jordan planet, FINALLY

Soo.... After 34 days of blogging!! I'm finally on Jordan planet!!

I am happy and excited about it :) I will seize this chance to thank whoeever is in charge of this lovely website!! Thanks and Keep up the nice work!

The world cup and me!!!

Sari: "Let's go back home to watch the game Reem. Please!"
Reem: "No Sari. No way I am going to spend 2 hours watching a football game. I don't like football, and I understand nothing of it."
Sari: "Come on… Please. Maybe you will like it. It's Saudi and Tunis today".
Reem: "No. Listen, go by yourself and enjoy it. I will find something else to do."
Sari: " Noo please come watch it with me, I don't want to watch it alone."
Reem: " Ok, ok. But under one condition!! We will go to some coffee shop to watch it. It would be more fun for me."

And so that was the compromise! We watch the game but in a coffee shop! So I called up a friend and asked her where we can go, and ended up in "le mondial café" – Abdoun. They charge entrance fees 3 JDs per person!

Well, I have to admit it was nice and funny. I didn’t know who should I support. Sari supported Tunis, so I thought I will support Saudi then!! The atmosphere was nice, lots of people who are soo anxious for their teams to win.. and seems it's contagious. I found myself jumping and shouting when Saudi scored their goals!

So yesterday was a day to remember…For the first time in my life I watch a football game, support a team, jump and shout for them!!! I actually enjoyed it! Seems that football is not as bad as I thought it is! The only unfortunate thing was is that I didn’t have my digital camera :( it is with my sister in Egypt. I will post some picture of her trip when she is back!

So who is playing today??

Jordan Telecom – The directory Services

"Jordan Telecom welcomes you. This call is charged for three and half piasters from fixed telephones. This call will be recorded for quality assurance."

I felt really bad when I knew they started to charge for calling the directory. I read the comments of the CEO of Jordan telecom and wasn't really convinced. That is a service that should be given for free for subscribers as we all ready pay JT enough through our bills, tax and subscription fees. If such services are charged, then what does the subscription fees cover?

What reminded me of this topic now? It is not that I woke up late on what is happening in the country. It is because it happened that I needed to call the 1212 a couple of times today to get a couple of numbers. And none was right. It's either they give me the fax of the place I called, a branch I don’t need, a wrong number, out of service number, or they don’t have the contact I am looking for in the first place.

So I end up having to call them twice or three times to get the right contact, and of course they are charging me for every single call I make, although it was the mistake of their agent to give me the fax or the wrong number or whatsoever…

If they decide to charge me for calling them, which is unacceptable in the first place, they should at least make sure that they would actually serve me when I call them. I don't understand it when their agent tells me that they don’t have the number, or that’s the only number registered in the database. They need to update their database to include every single contact in the kingdom, make sure they don’t give out wrong contacts, and make sure I wouldn’t have to call them 3 times and be charged for each to get one contact. Only then, they might consider charging people for those calls.

Thoughts...

I feel I have to write something for my beloved blog. I don't really have a special topic to talk about, but I will just share my feelings at the moment.

I woke up today with a strange mood.. unhappy one unfortunately. There is no reason I should be, everything is going alright, thank God. Well, maybe it's because I'm gaining too much weight and can't manage to loose any? any suggesstions for quick weight loss before my wedding?

I feel neutral about everything happening around. I didn't have any feelings whatsoever towards the death of Zarqawi.. I didn't know if it was good or bad, I honestly have little faith in all kinds of media. Was he really a terrorist? Wasn't he pushed by some other third party to do such terrorist acts and then blame Arabs and muslims? I am not standing by Zarqawi or by acts he did, I felt really furuios for what happaned in our beloved Amman last november, but isn't Israel practicing terrosrism in it's worst shapes in palestine, and so are american soldiers in Iraq? Why are they celebrating his death as if he was the only terrorist on earth and world will be a heaven after he was killed? I think we still have a long long way to go before we celebrate a war-free, terrorism-free, peaceful world....

Anyway, I hate politics, I hate to talk about it. And I seem to understand nothing about it in the first place, so I would better not talk about it anyway!!

My mind is really blank at the moment. I don't have to tell you that I'm sleepy ofcourse!! Still 3 hours to go before the end of this day...

Q: Do I seem to be like an unpleasant person?

Joudy!

Joud is my niece. She is 5 years old, and just "graduated" from KG2!!

And guess what, she said the graduates speech!! One of the sentences she said was:

في السنة القادمة سنذهب إلى الصف الأول لنكمل تعليمنا بروح معنوية عالية

That is:" Next year we will be in the first grade where we will pursue our education with high morals"

It is funny how she was saying such things she doesn’t understand at all.

Anyway I just want to share some pictures of her!!



Performing "Laila And the Wolf"! She is the brown Wolf!!




Dancing!



Saying the Speech



Waiving to her mother!

Strangers in Our Wedding

Yes it's true; there are strangers in our weeding; people that we don’t know. But guess what? There is always a reason for that and there is always someone that can justify such phenomenon
What is really bothers me is this:

My grandmothers (Allah yer7mhom) control 80% of my wedding list; well, if one of my grandmothers is to be married next month she only needs to change the directions of the cars to her home; I know that they will be more than satisfied with the wedding list and they will be very delighted seeing their best relatives around.

ReemO has already talked about this topic in a previous post from a different angle. For me, what I'm concerned about now is not the invitations (I think I am now used to pay for everything, so this won't make a difference ) what really concerns me is this:

How am I going to tell who are these people in my weeding, would I be able to distinguish if they are intruders on my weeding or some invitees I haven't seen for ages, or maybe never??

What about names or at least the roots we have!!! How can I tell???

Would they even try to participate in our weeding?

Are those people attending to celebrate with us or are just there to get more topics to gossip about the week after?

I don’t know! Anyway I can do nothing about it; I can only hope that they deserve the effort we are investing!!!!!

Panic!

Alright! I have to admit it now. I am starting to panic!

I have my own way of calculating days, I actually calculate weekends because it's only on weekends that I can work on the nitty gritty things, as during the week there isn't really much time after work. So, there are only 4 weekends left!

My sister arrives on the 23rd. My brothers on the 30th!!

I still have many things to work on. I didn't yet figure about the honey moon. Cards are not ready yet, and we have to go arrange with the flowers guy, DJ, photography, zafeh and hotel! And of course there are couple of things I need to buy!! Ooohh, not to mention my dress and the veil, that's a headache!!!!

And there is my home! It's soo dirty,, dust is everywhere. I have to find a day to go and clean it! And we have to make it's all ready for human use. The refrigerator, the washing machine, the oven!! This is Sari's job! Did I tell you that I actually tried to clean a bit over the weekend? I think it's a bit better, but there is still a lond way to go!!

And guess what, I will have to remove my wisdom teeth!! I am not yet sure of the date, but it should be ASAP, maybe late this week or early next week! Tell you a secret? I am afraid to death!!

I'm sleepy, as always! And Hungry!!

My camera doesn't work! well, not exactly, something is wrong with the batteries they don't recharge. I dont know if it's the batteries or the charger. Anyone knows where can I fix it?

I have a question!

It's 1:35 p.m. It's lunch-break time and almost everyone is out of the office so it's kind of quiet around! I don't know if this silence is good or bad. Sometimes I love it as I feel I need to have a quiet hour to sit with myself after a hectic day.

But today, I don't feel so. The atmosphere around makes me feel dreadfully sleepy, which brings me to the reason why I am writing this post...

I sleep minimum 7.5 hours daily, and in average 8 - 8.5 hours, which should be perfect for adults. Now why am I always very sleepy? Sari would answer this immediately "It's cause you are not an adult, you are a 7-year-old child!!"

Does this by any chance have to do with the fact that I dream a lot? what brought this thought to my mind, not only that I dream a lot, is that while I am sleeping I have conversations with myself about the dream "being shown"!! If it is a "show"I don't like, I would tell myself " It's ok, it's a dream that will end soon!" It's like I am on two levels during my sleep, the first is deeply sleeping and dreaming, while the other is supervising and monitoring!

I know that is funny and seems totally illogical. But here is my theory about it: Dreaming this much and being so alert about dreams while I am sleeping reduces the quality of sleep I get. So maybe the 8 hourrs I take gives me the quality of 5?

Some Photos, Finally!!

It was a nice long weekend. I had a good rest, visited some friends with Sari, Went for the celebration of The Independence Day held by Fastlink at Hussein Gardens, and most importantly, finished some tasks that have been on the 'to do' list for long. We had to move some stuff into our home.

I don't have much to say!! But I do have some pictures to share with you!


This picture up is at our home, Sari and me sitting on the balcony after Sari and his brother "Anas" finished moving the desk, paravan and my fitness flyer into the house. By the way, Thanks Anas!!



























And here are some of the photos at Hussein Gardens!

42 Days left!

This is my Dad's way of calculating days, crossing out today and the day of the wedding, there are only 42 days left.

My feelings are confused about it; I feel it's still too far because I can't wait till it comes. But when I use my brains (which I rarely do :)) I panic as there isn't really much time left, especially when I think about the things I have to do before the 6th of July!!!

At the moment, I'm exploring the options for a honeymoon. I'm being a bit frustrated about it as prices are crazily expensive. But I didn’t give up yet, I will look for more options and find the perfect package. :)

The invitation cards are another thing! A friend of ours, actually he is Sari's brother in law, promised us to design something special for us. I am sure he will design something very nice and special. He is very talented! Ooh, you should know him guys! He is Wa'el Attili! After I get the design, I will have to find a print house to do the job for a good price!

Ok, I will stop listing as I will never finish, and there are so many thoughts I want to share here!!

Khalida and Naseem were triggered with the wedding seasons upcoming and had some thoughts to share! I agree with the Naseem about the "middle class syndrome", I agree as well with Khalida that SOME people, but not all, overdo it in weddings.

But hey, I seem to be a bit more optimistic about the whole issue. I think I have to be since I am getting married in 42 days! I don’t think things are as bad as we think they are or as they seem to be. I don’t blame any bride who is looking forward to her wedding day and wishing to make it the most beautiful and memorable ever, even if it's going to cost a bit morem it's once in a lifetime! I want this. I want to hold a very nice party, I want to wear the white dreamy dress I want to dance till the morning and I want firewroks!!! But this would not necessarily cost us 30k! I agree that some ladies or families overdo it. But I know that many others don’t. I don’t think any mature lady would make her fiancé / husband-to-be pay 10k for the wedding ceremony while he cannot afford it! They just make the best out of their resources and plan the most important day of their lives to be just as they have been dreaming of ever since they were 5 years old!

We can have different point of views of what makes your day the best, Amr Diab or just a small family dinner. But the bottom line here is: This is your day! Make the best out of it!

But you know what gets on my nerve in the wedding party? The list of invitees. My family has the list they want to invite, and when I look at it, I feel unhappy. More then one third of the list are people I haven't seen for the past 2 years, and wouldn’t see ever after I get married or people I don’t care about and their presence won't mean anything to me! Why do I have to invite some relatives or acquaintances that I hate to see, and I know for fact they hate me? Why do I have to have them ruin my wedding? Why do I have to invite people who will come to my wedding, sit there criticizing my dress, my make-up and the food??

The problem here is that you will always have number obligations. So I ended up crossing out some friends of ours that we would love to have for some people I don’t want to see at my wedding! And why is all that? It's the "wajib". They invited us. They are your relatives etc…

I remember here one of Lina's posts:

"I’ve learned something, and I’m making it a point to implement it in my life.
Stop doing things because you have to. Stop going to gatherings just to fulfill social obligations. Stop the needless ‘mujamaleh’ and pleasantries, stop putting
on masks and faking politeness."

I can't agree more Lina!!

Other than this, I am so excited about my wedding!!

3areesena Zeen il Shabab!

Yesterday was an important day! At least in the schedule of our "To do" list that seems to be endless as the wedding day is approaching!!!!

Here is the important news!

Sari bought the wedding suit!!! A Tuxedo of course!!!

He looks so handsome in that suit!! I really regret not having the camera to take some photos of it!! This teaches me a lesson. I will always carry the camera with me so I would be able to take photos and share them on the blog!

And while we were in the shop, just about to pay for the suit and leave, I started to look around, and ofcourse found million of nice stuff for Sari to buy! And I ended up convincing him that he needs this and that, and he ended up buying a bunch of trousers and shirts!! I think he hates me for that!!

I have a question: Why don't you guys like to buy clothes? Who is overdoing it exactly? Are we overdoing our "Obssession" to buy clothes? Or you guys are overdoing not caring enough about it?

Mabroooook Ya 3areeeees!

:(

I am depressed.

I have so many thoughts; I don't know where to start.

I feel like crying. Have you ever had that feeling? The need to cry? I have been holding my tears back since Tuesday noon, trying to look strong. Well, I am surprised from myself, I never had that ability to hold back my tears, I used to be very sensitive and it was the easiest thing on earth to cry. Maybe I should be happy that I learnt to control my self. Or isn’t it sad to loose the only sensitive part you had?

I didn't cry, Yet!! But I do feel the urge need, I feel I would collapse at the first click.

Whatever!

I just have a question. Say you are in a middle of a discussion with someone, who thinks that you have done a big mistake (Maybe you actually did, but this is not my question), and it holds much more than it shows; that it ruined the trust, and you are irresponsible.... Then suddenly, the other person asks you: "am I exaggerating about it?" and then answers himself "I don’t think so". What is this supposed to mean? Wouldn’t it mean that somewhere deep down he feels he is actually exaggerating? I mean if that person did not feel he's gone too far, would that thought of being "Exaggerative " cross his mind? It wouldn’t cross my mind unless I really feel I am exaggerating, BIG TIME!

More problems are coming in the way. I really feel down! I know I seem to be a very bad-mooded person, and I know it's not fun at all reading such posts…

I don't even have a weekend to look forward to!

Anyway, life seems better after eating!

I hope no other problems are waiting for me behind the door!

I feel a bit better!

Confused, and a bit upset!

It's so ironic how life keeps surprising us. Few months ago I was feeling lost; not because I didn't know where I was going but because I didn't feeling I was at the right place at all.
Every while and then anyone of us would feel the need of change, the need of joining in a new company with a new atmosphere, the need to improve and impress more people with your talents.

So this is what happened to me, suddenly and out of the blue, I decided to change my career path; it was obvious I am going to do, especially with the huge numbers I am being offered from other companies outside Jordan, the low future opportunities and the minimal attention I am receiving from mine. It raised my ego being wanted, and also raised my worries about staying in my company. So after all I decided to go and explore more opportunities.

But it seemed like opportunities were looking for me this time. One afternoon, I was shocked with someone calling me asking to see me for an interview. I went there and met him. He seemed to be a very nice businessperson with a good package in his basket (how do I know? Good question! Well, it's my talent to know people). It was a good interview, I think I fulfilled his needs and impressed him that he almost asked me to get back with him and start immediately.
I still don’t have anything solid yet. Although I have always rejected all the offers I got to go outside Jordan (for my family's sake, nothing else), it seems that I am now ready to take the trip for a better future (hopefully).

And I started thinking that I should work on creating a strong team to handle all my responsibilities around here, and so my leave would go more smoothly. There will still be gaps that only me can cover due to personality and experience I have, but I can't hand those over (Thank GOD!).

Although I was happy with how things evolved, I somehow began to have second thoughts about it and felt I did a mistake that I was going to leave my manager, who is my friend initially (in everything except money!!)
And I got stuck in this trap, until a friend advised me to take a look at the overall picture, listen to the ongoing debates in the company, and see where we are standing at the time being. Then it suddenly hit my mind, this golden rule that says: Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option.
I became very loyal to my company and manager, while I was just another employee there!
I looked around I found my self in a very good position, I am a key person to my company and to My VIP clients as well. Nevertheless, I won't get any further with the current procedures and policies at the company. I had to face it; the world is running around someone else these days.
Why Am I so upset now?

After I almost took my decision of leaving and moving ahead in my life, my destiny has a surprise for me!
We are having what we call the storm of resignations at the company; I won't talk about the reasons of those resignations because I don’t know for sure if what I heard was the real ones. However, I will talk about what happened to me after the news had spread all around.
Ironically, I was suddenly pulled up to the highest and most important level in the company, higher even than the level of the owner himself! Of course without the boy driving my car or an open account in my bank.

What really bothers me here is not the change or the conflict I had with the options on the table. It’s the way how things changed in the company, I know now that I can ask for anything I want do whatever I want.

What I really don’t know is: wasn’t it so obvious for my manager that he had gambled on the wrong horse for a long time? The funny thing is that he expected to collect the same number from his second best horse. Ignoring that in life there is no such in-between decisions. Wasn't it clear for him which horse was going to win?
I wonder, do I really make others my priority while I am their option? Do I have to emphasize every single task and achievement to my manager in order to get his full attention? Or may be as ReemO always says, I just expect too much from others….

Experience tells you what to do; confidence allows you to do it.

Good morning everyone;
It seems that today is a distinguished one in my life. Three months ago I interviewed a fresh graduat from Yarmuk University, although it was my seventh interview that day but I was astonished with the willing to do and the smooth and sweet confident he had. In that day I was very amazed that such a poor and aged educational system can let go for some exceptions in the market. He was very worried if eventually he would find his chance to prove him self, or is it just relations that can create chances. Believe me I've tried my best to take him in my team, but he was right someone from the top management has a deal that needeed some extra effort to close it.

Today the good news came and finally I could do someone a big favor by empowering his team with this new and pure blood. I know that he deserves the chance and I really wish him the best, not because I am tough with the quality of the teams I create and I always search for the best fit; but because he had worked hardly on himself and I like that. Finaly my friend I wish you can read this some day because I am not telling you about it. And you know that if you don’t know were you are going any road will take you there. Its just the right way that make it easier, permanent and enjoyable.

Back to writing, with a Thank-You note

Writing used to be a hobby of mine. I am saying "used to be" because it has been ages since I last wrote a word. It has been probably three years now! At some time in my life I used to keep diaries, I remember that I used to write when I felt bad, or when I had any feeling I need to express.

Why did I stop? I don’t know. I even feel I lost the talent of writing, that is if I had one in the first place! I think I wasn't too bad, I always used to get the best marks for that boring part of English and Arabic lessons: Composition!

So!! What am I trying to say?

Ok, I wanted to say that I decided to start writing again. I am not sure how good I am going to be, or if I would actually keep up with this! But the important thing I would like to share here is:

Thanks Lina!!

I think all bloggers know Lina very well. And I was lucky to be her colleague!
She inspires me too much, and I have to admit that this is all her influence on me. I honestly have to say that I can't remember I was ever this strongly affected by anyone.

Cheers my friend!

Good Morning!

Hello All!!

This is my first blog, and first post. I know I should first introduce myself to this lovely blogosphere! But I think I have chosen the wrong timing. I am so sleepy at the moment that the only thing I can think about is my warm BED!

Anyway, I will just say Hi to all now, hoping I will be posting something more interesting soon. when I wake up hopefully (I'd better do or I will get fired!!).